feeling left behind

So, today I had to say goodbye to a good friend of mine. He is headed to school in Toronto for the next few years. Now, some of you may be thinking "Toronto isn't so far away from St. Catharines" - and you're right, it isn't. However, circumstances being what they are, travelling to or from Toronto is not going to happen as often as I would like. So we spent the evening talking and watching an old movie (Charade with Grant Carey and Audrey Hepburn). It was a nice evening, but now he's gone and I am sad. I guess that's my biggest objection to summer being over - there are so many changes to my life that I have no control over. Friends I have made over the past few years have graduated and are moving on. This is a good thing and I am very happy for them, but it means a change in the way we interact with each other (or at least how often we can get together). Like always, it seems just when I get used to being around certain people and develop friendships and trust people, something happens to change the dynamic of our relationship. For me, that is a really hard thing to deal with. I have some fairly major trust issues to begin with,and then to have to feel like I have to start fresh again just throws me for a loop. I HATE that!!! So right now I'm typing, rambling and crying because it feels like I'm being left behind as my friends are moving on to other stages in life. Yeah, if you asked me "How are you?" right now, I'd say "not good". Thanks for reading and putting up with my rant.

where did the summer go?

Where did the summer go? I can't believe that school starts again next week! I thought I would have more time for things (like writing on my blog), but it turns out that life has been extremely busy and I haven't written nearly as much as I wanted to. That being said, life has been busy but fairly good. I've been tutoring several children this summer and that has been encouraging. It has renewed my desire to finish my program at Brock and to continue my dream of becoming a teacher. I have also been a bit of a homebody - gardening, laundry, bookkeeping - but that's ok. I was in desperate need of some "down time" and I think this did the trick. I have still been dealing with many headaches and migraines, but I'm not sure that there is anything that can be done that hasn't been tried (medications, massages, acupuncture, chiropractic treatments, new lenses). So that is gonna be tough this year at school and I hope I can handle it. Na ja, this is all I have time for right now. I would say I'll be on again soon, but at this point I can't guarantee that. So I'll be back - sometime.